From 2005 to 2010, Kendra Wilkinson He knew that he was one of Neighboring girlsThree blonde bombs share a glimpse of life in the famous Playboy Palace. But for the reality star, it was difficult to get rid of the comparisons with whom it was – and what it seemed – nearly two decades ago.

“I used to live my life and enjoy twenty years of age, be thin and [a] Party girl. I did not realize that I was preparing myself for this unrealistic expectation in my thirties, “Wilkinson, 39, says,” says Wilkinson, 39,, we. “I feel that society needs me to stay the girl they knew one day.”

However, with her fortieth birthday approaching in June, Mom two (She and the former Hank basket The participation of the fourth son Hank, 15, and his daughter Ali, 10) is proud to embrace herself in every form. It has also ended with strangers who share their unwanted opinions: on January 12, Kindra sells Hollywood alum Critical criticism Attacking [and] He is 40 years old, please know that I am happy, healthy and peace in life. “

And most importantly, “I have become the woman I want to be,” she says we. “I don’t feel free, to be honest.”

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Here, Wilkinson speaks in a new era.

What inspired you to address the body lists on Instagram?

It is important to highlight these things. I see a lot of life [and] Many of the body, and this is not true. We are human. People are angry with women to aging [or] Get a pound. Unfortunately, we must feel [like] We must be 25 [years old] And the size of zero forever. I am unconscious at all times, and I have confidence in the height over it and to be comfortable in my skin. This is about embracing life now.

Was there a moment when she gave self -confidence?

Last year, I was working hard on myself. Before that, I [was] It is struggled with life through divorce, depression and mental health. I passed through absolute hell – it was the thirties of chaos – and [I] Praise be to God, I hit this bottom because the only way to go is. I finally did the right work to reach this point of confidence. Before, I was a self -sabotage and I live in regret and shame, so although I was thin and elegant, [that] It does not mean that I was necessarily happy. Now that I gained a few pounds, I feel confident. I feel satisfied with myself. This is the first time in a long time I want to wander in a swimming suit with every person watching.

What was behind mental health struggles?

The two ends of the divorce are definitely to the ground, then things get away from control. She had to embrace life as a single mother. [Hank] He is a great father, but on my part, I am alone, so I regretted the past myself. I lived in Deep depression For years it was a battle. Finally, I passed a psychotic collapse, and I had to enter the hospital. It was the darkest point in my life. I had to recover.

How to keep a healthy lifestyle now?

I had [to] Focus on a realistic mentality and how to improve my thoughts. Self -care is very important. [I also do] Daily, and I take medications, which may have to do with an increase. The doctor tried to prescribe OzemPic and said no. What do I do [instead] It is cooking. I will cook more good oils, but I will not go to any crazy diet.

Do you reconcile with your PlayBoy past?

I still have relapse when it comes to why I did PlayBoy or why I moved [to the Playboy Mansion] Eighteen years of age. I make signatures and most pictures are PlayBoy pictures. A year ago, I was crying. I was like, “Oh my God, this is not me anymore.” I was very angry at myself and the world. I felt this PlayBoy image. It is a lot of pressure and you don’t know how to fight it mentally. Frankly, it comes to thinking positively. I live in original and finally I entered this place for the first time since the neighboring girls.

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Are you looking for love?

I have been in the Raya Dating application for nearly five years. Am I happy like f – now alone? Wow – yes. I really love my freedom and I have a boy’s games here and there. Do I want to find love again? Certainly, yes. I am open to it, but for the time being, I love my freedom.

How is your head space when entering your forties? What after you?

I am still in real estate now and do a great job. Things are looking. I feel blessed. I cannot be happier in the 1940s. I am very proud of all the obstacles that overcame them, and my children are happy. I feel confident that I will find love again [and] Let me tell you, my weight does not stop the most hot men [from] I come to me. The best version of Kendra is here now.

To learn more about Wilkinson, picked up the last issue of United States weekYOn the stands now.