Keelsei Gurmer He will never forget the last time his sister heard Karen Granmervoice.

It was on June 30, 1975, and the 20 -year -old actor – to the house to Florida after being expelled from the prestigious Gilliord School in New York City. Karen, who recently followed a friend of Colorado Springs, Colorado, was soon appointed to join Kelissi and the rest of their family to celebrate her nineteenth birthday.

During a phone call, the interconnected siblings talked about their plans-Kelcy was looking to spend the summer together and bring them to his girlfriend. They remember them telling each other, “I will see you a little,” and “I can’t wait to see you again.”

Ten days later, Kelissy Investigators have been informed Karen was violently killed in the early hours of July 1. The perpetrators, Freddy Galin, Larry Den and Eric McCleid – Those who took the lives of seven people in a murder in that summer – are believed to be planning to steal the Red Sea locusts, as Karen worked when she spotted her near the rear entrance and kidnapped her. They raped her and tortured her before she stabbed her 42 times, and they cut her throat and left her to die in a mobile home garden.

Despite her wounds, she crawled to someone’s decline in an attempt to help. There, she died, hand in a fist over her head with one finger, as Kelissi believes, in the direction she was attacked.

In his new notes, Karen: The brother remembers (On May 6), Kelissi explores Destroy On the loss of his beloved little sister. “She went out. He drowned in sadness,” he wrote, adding that he blamed himself for its demise even though he was about 2000 miles away. “I was her protector, her old brother. I felt he had to stop him.”

The book-written book returns in an intimate manner, the conscious-with the details of the death of Karen and the Kelissi’s private life story (the five-time Emmy Award winner about his representative journey, failed relationships and drug abuse cases).

This was not easy – but Kelissy says do so Help him heal and forgive in the end same. “It was amazing,” says tears we. “I no longer hold the part of the part. I no longer blame myself anymore. I just miss it.”

we He sat with my 70 -year -old father (Spencer, 41, with a former wife Doreen Aldurman; Jarir, 33, with the former Barry Bokner Mason, 23, the presence, 20 years old, with his ex -wife Real housewives in Beverly Hills alum Cameel Mayer; Faith, 12, Gabriel, 10, James, 8, with his 14 -year -old wife, Kate Walsh46) To talk about keeping Karen’s live memory and finding light inside the dark.

Why did you decide to write this book?
The whole idea was to bring Karen here to remember it. People said, “Wow, I really feel that I got to know her,” and this is what I wanted to do. Also, the launch of myself from some of the guilt that I lived with for a long time.

I have said it is not a book on sadness, it is a book on life. Tell us more.
He is definitely happy. For a long time, the sadness was in the climb and remained there. Finally, the joy of joy. They live evenly – perhaps a little more likely towards joy. If there is one thing I hope I can move to people who have suffered a similar sadness, then this is to look back in life [the person] He lived instead of the life they lost.

She writes that Karen asked you to tell her story.
I had a conversation with a mediator about three years ago and said: “Oh, your sister here. She wants you to tell her story.” It was so simple. I waited a few months and started recycling in some notes, and after I reached about 20 pages, I suddenly thought, “This is a book.”

How would he reconsider the terrible events that led to her death?
It was really difficult. Sometimes I disappeared to sadness I could not get rid of. After I read the police report, I couldn’t do anything for about three weeks. I had to take a break.

I went back to the crime place for the book. Why was this important?
She managed to discover things about her, which was just like. The things that I knew somewhat, but the fact that she crawled as much as she did, and went as much as she did in those last moments of her life, was really trapped. [It was] It is very difficult to pass, but I felt as if I should be there. I had to walk with these steps.

I was the person who displays her body. How was that?
It is still a haunting picture. The strangest thing about it was that there is a comfort in knowing that it is no longer in this body. This year, I found a quote from CS Lewis [that says]”You don’t have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body.” And I thought, “That’s all.”

He will be 50 years since her death in July. Is it difficult to believe that she has left long?
sometimes. The other side of this is that she was always with me. The only thing I wonder is, do you look at me on the other side of time and say: “Well, you are progressing in old age.” [Laughs.]

Did you feel it with you while writing?
definitely. She knew what was the task – for me to finally be fine. I spent my whole life in the blame game, and I think it thought I was waste my time. It was not my fault and I need to know him. There may also be a feeling that I have something else to do and that getting this was a launching platform in a new life.

I mentioned that you are afraid of losing it again after completing the book.
[There] It was part of me when I started writing this thought.[Will] This changes the way we are together? “It is actually stronger.

What do you miss more?
Contact. There was ease with Karen In my life. Even when she was young, we were only there, together. We came together. It was a special relationship. Karen has always been the simplest and most beautiful reflection of myself and another human communication.

Does her loss shake your faith?
Yes. I thought I lost it. Jesus, and God, I knew when I was a young boy and trusted him – did not seem to have been there at some point. That was very difficult. This book revolves around helping people return to faith. There are a lot of people there, including me, who are sad for them and will always give them their hand.

Two of her killers died in prison, but Freddy Glenn had come to condition again in late 2027. I was present in his previous sessions. Why?
This is what I can do. Focus on keeping it in prison. I think it should not be free. It can be free when he dies. He can interfere in … whatever he enters.

Did her killers forgive?
There is [Anton] Chekhov The line that goes, “Since we forgive, it will be stupid if we do not forgive.” I embraced this concept. Carrying hatred destroys the person who carries it. It allows you to be able to forgive to breathe again.

In the book, you can delay your pain in drugs and alcohol.
I ended up in a position for a period of time as I did some heavy drinking. I was interested in burying a lot of my sin. There was a great man I met, and he said that the reason for everyone Addiction is the sadness that has not been resolved.

She also discusses that she is in an unhappy marriage with a woman but left her name. Why?
It is not a Tablide book or the book “I want to return to someone.” It comes to Karen and a good look at all the people who entered my life and left my life at different times. This is the only position I thought, “Well, the gentle thing is omission.”

I found happiness with Katie. How did you support your wife during the writing process?
Kayte has a great ability to analyze the situation and reach a positive but thoughtful reflection of what you think is thinking about it. She has an analytical mind that I have no.

There is a sad revelation of you, and Katie was forced to thwart a child who would have been a twin in order to save your daughter. How did this affect your marriage?
We have actually made us stronger in several ways. Katie went a lot. We can cry the buckets during that day, but we have a blessing to know that [our son] Gabriel came [next].

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How does it seem to be the father of seven?
It was interesting. The age range from [41] To eight. This is very cool. It is 12, 10 and 8 years old who spends them every day, and it is wonderful. They are amazing, and make my life worthy of attention. The love that I have in my life today is breathtaking.

Has Karen’s murder affected the parent’s method at all?
[Mostly in that] I hope they should not try what I have gone through. I want my children to live completely, tolerate the risks and be bold and adventure.

How did you help you recover?
[They’ve] He reminded me of how wonderful life and the magnificence of her vision through their eyes. Get a fall with them and re -discover this wonderful place.

I have said that your sadness prevented you from living a completely happy life. Did this change, given your place today?
It was amazing Since the book was published And because we started somewhat in a harvest [this] The gift was. I had no better time in my life. never.

What is the message that you hope to cross with this book?
Sadness is a strong thing. It is appropriate to be sad. But to make joy in line with sadness – to make them stand side by side and moments of great joy – this is the trick.